Pregnancy Journal: The First Four Days

by Lara on February 6, 2012

Thank you for all the congratulations and well wishes!  

To read Day One, click here.

December 5, 2011 (Day Two):

When I first started reading about conceiving a baby, a clear theme emerged: it’s harder than you think.  Sure, in high school they tell you it can basically happen at any time: if you even think about having unprotected sex, you will get pregnant.  Fool around with that boy and you will get pregnant.  Breathe wrong and you will get pregnant.

Until I was 26 years old, I essentially believed I could get pregnant at any time; I just had to say the word.  After all, if it has taken so much effort to avoid it all this time, it only makes sense that the reverse would be equally true, right?

Then I got lost in the books and the studies and the statistics.  It turns out that the average couple takes 4-6 months to conceive, longer if the woman has a history of irregular cycles.  There is only a 15-25% chance of conceiving in any one ovulatory cycle, and that is if you’re under 25 and doing everything right.

We got lucky.  It didn’t take 4-6 months.  Kids, listen to your health teachers.


December 6, 2011 (Day Three):

Finding out you are pregnant and not being able to tell anyone is a unique torture.  We figure, if something bad does happen, there will be certain people we’ll want to talk with, anyway, so we choose four family members and spill the beans.  After this, a line from some Hollywood comedy flashes in my head: this sh*t just got REAL.

Suddenly I want to tell everyone.  Maybe not everyone…just a few friends.  And my therapist.  And the grocery clerk.  And a customer service representative from AT&T.

But that’s it.  We cannot tell anyone else.


December 7, 2011 (Day Four):

I need to stop reading pregnancy books.  They are all loudly alerting me what a sensitive time in the pregnancy this is, with scary statistics on miscarriage and every other possible thing that could go wrong.  I worry enough as it is; I don’t need books scaring me into becoming more paranoid.

After learning I was pregnant, the husband ordered about a million books online.  When the delivery arrived, he promptly handed a book over to me and said, “Read this one first.”

He knows me well.

Yet somehow, this book is actually inducing more panic than I had in the first place.  It’s telling me not to panic about things that I didn’t even know existed, which naturally means I will now panic about them.

I decide to go for a walk around Greenlake and take a figurative chill pill.


Reflection:  Don’t worry, I’m not going to share my thoughts for every day of this pregnancy.  The first few days were so surreal that it’s been fun to revisit them.  I’ll do periodic Pregnancy Journal updates and promise to keep things brief!

{ 20 comments… read them below or add one }

Karen February 6, 2012 at 9:30 am

Aww 🙂 I like reading pregnancy & baby stories..

You should blog about it along the way!


Lara February 6, 2012 at 9:38 am

Thanks Karen. I will definitely blog along the way…just not on a daily basis or I will even drive myself crazy 😉


glidingcalm February 6, 2012 at 9:36 am

I’m still squealing for you over here!! 😀 and no stress, you are going to be FABULOUS


Jessie @ Graze With Me February 6, 2012 at 10:37 am

My two FAVORITE websites are & They are hilarious and informative.

There’s so much (old fashioned) bad advice out there. Just go with your gut – you’ll be fine!


Lara February 6, 2012 at 1:01 pm

I love Pregnant Chicken! Haven’t heard of Alpha Mom…I will have to check it out. Thanks, Jessie!


Andrea@WellnessNotes February 6, 2012 at 10:43 am

I remember the first days and weeks… It’s such a surreal feeling. And not being able to tell anyone is hard!

I feel things were a lot simpler when I was pregnant with the “young adult” 21 years ago. Writing this makes me feel very old… Since I was older when we decided to try for “the kid,” I read a lot beforehand and right away noticed how much things had changed. It seemed like the list of things you should never ever do when pregnant (or trying to become pregnant) was a mile long. And then there were all the things that could go wrong… I tried to be cautious but at one point decided I needed to take a break and not bombard myself with “things not to do” on a daily basis.

I know not everything about pregnancy is wonderful, but it’s such a special time in your life! Enjoy it! And try not to worry! 🙂 This is coming from a person who is an expert at worrying herself! 🙂


Lara February 6, 2012 at 1:08 pm

Yes, I can imagine pregnancy was a little easier on the anxiety levels when there were fewer things known to worry about! Though I am grateful for all the research and development, it certainly adds to the stress! I am starting to relax a little more now though 🙂


Roz@weightingfor50 February 6, 2012 at 5:49 pm

Oh geez….Lara, I missed your announcement post. BIG BIG congratulations to you and your husband. VERY exciting times ahead. (have you broken the news to the pups yet??? They may be LESS impressed given they won’t be the only babies soon. 🙂 Kidding of course!!) All the best!!!!!


Lara February 6, 2012 at 9:00 pm

Thank you, Roz! Hehe…you are not the first to ask us if we have broken it to the dogs yet 😉 Yes, I am sure they will be unimpressed. I am anticipating a transitional period for sure!


Shayla @ The Good Life February 6, 2012 at 6:24 pm

I love reading all about this – so fun!! Makes me think that once I get pregnant I’d like to keep a journal like this…would be really neat to look back on one day 🙂


Ashley February 6, 2012 at 8:25 pm

I don’t know if you recognize me from Instagram (heh) but I used to read Thinspired, and I have to say how much I enjoyed your first two pregnancy posts. They were honest without being TMI, authentic without being over the top and just, well, well done. A couple other bloggers out there should take a page from your … blog?


Lara February 6, 2012 at 9:04 pm

Ashley, that is such a nice comment, thank you so much. Remind me of your Instagram name again if you don’t mind…my brain isn’t working at full capacity these days! 😉


Ashley February 7, 2012 at 7:32 pm

I’m @ashleykritzer



Lara February 7, 2012 at 7:42 pm

Ah, of course!!


Biz February 7, 2012 at 10:16 am

I will give you a bit of advice Lara.

One: People had kids long before “What to Expect When Your Expecting” books came out, and their kids came out just fine.

Two: Everyone’s pregnancy is different – what one woman feels at two months, another feels at four months. Don’t panic. As long as you follow your doctors instructions, all will go well. 😀

Still so excited for you guys!


Lara February 7, 2012 at 4:49 pm

Thank you, Biz! I think that’s sound advice 🙂


Jamie February 7, 2012 at 11:05 pm

I started reading your blog because my friend Julia Dittmer was posting about it. I am pregnant myself (6 1/2 months now). You are describing all of my initial feelings toward pregnancy, telling people, the stuff I read, etc. exactly! So great! I will enjoy reading your posts. Thanks for sharing!


Lara February 8, 2012 at 11:20 am

Congrats to you and thanks for your comment! I’m glad someone out there can relate 🙂


Nic February 12, 2012 at 10:42 am

Congratulations Love!! I am truly happy for you and your husband!
The topic of children is something Jake and I have been pondering on as of late, so I’m adoring your honest thoughts and insights. I wish the three of you health and happiness in the coming chapters <3
Now the big question… will you be a 'Mom', or a 'Mum' 😛


Lara February 12, 2012 at 1:20 pm

Well thank you, Nic! I think I’ll be ‘Mom,’ but we’ll see!


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